Kick the covers

Basically I think it's time I kicked my arse into gear! I have done nothing this week but lie in bed, play Xbox, eat and text Jac in the Box...I blame her.

Anyway! I need a life. I feel I'm wasting my reason for living by just being lazy and 'comfortable'.

I hate the word 'comfortable' a lot at the moment. Why be comfortable? When you can be more then that! I'd rather say to people 'I'm fucking great' then 'Yeah, I'm comfortable'. That's just like saying 'Meh'.

Sooo I declare war upon my self! No more mindless crap from now on.

Now...one of my favourites words, if not Favourite is 'Daydream'. Now everyone daydreams, like every day and thinks of either random things or something they want to make better for their selves. That's all great and fair enough if you take some self inspiration and do it, but I don't. I just daydream and daydream until it all become pointless. It's even affecting my writing and my push to do things.

Now I have been reading the confidence book and it all went great at first but it isn't working. Now! the only reason I can gather why it isn't working....is ME. Why do I just give up on things? I bloody know I can do it and get anything I want when I try because that's what I used to do.

I used to be so sure of my self and believe I could get anything I was focused on.

Sooooooo maybe I should push my self more and nag my self about it? I think I will!

I have no idea why I'm wrote this on here but I guess I need to see things on paper/screen to realise it. So hopefully I'll get in gear and actually do stuff.

Thank you for reading this nonsense.

-Peace-